life has been pretty shit for a while now, overwhelmed with sadness and tears...now I need to get a grip! It has slowly dawned on me that the only person who can get my life back on track is me. Friends have been few and far between - and I can sit all day without any contact...people are busy and I appreciate that but sometimes I just feel so lonely. I have a bright future and a new career to look forward to and I must grab this life of mine and shake it up...tomorrow I leave for a few days at the coast on my own...it will be hard as I will encounter many memories of happier times but I'm hoping that this can be my own Aboriginal walkabout; I know I will cry but I hope to lay some ghosts to rest and come home refreshed and rejuvenated and brimming with positive thoughts for the future. I was given a beautiful liberty notebook for when I started my training last year and I intend to start keeping a journal - I'm not sure if I will be any good at this but I need to dump some of this emotion somewhere...